New Years Resolutions + December in numbers.

First of all I want to wish Happy New Years to all of my followers ! :) Especially to Amy, Muffin and Moonlight Mistress (Piglet). (They are the only ones commenting, ever so I would love to thank them for their support!)

I weighted 55.8 at the end of November. Now I weight (as of today) 54.8. I lost a kilogram. The lowest of this month 55.6. Which for me is decent. Every kilogram for me is a battle.

BMI at the end of Nov. 20.2

BMI at the end of Dec. 19.9 = - 0.3 point in BMI thats pretty awesome. First time in a while I am finally under BMI 20. :) So I got me a present

I am proud of myself that I am able to keep on going and pretty much not giving up because Its hard to do that when you see only -1kg a month. I know that it will not get any quicker. I know that I can loose weight but It will take a while. And the reason why I didn't succeed in the past (for the past 9 years) is because I would give up.

But I am not gonna give up anymore. NEVER AGAIN. I cant just let go and be 58-59-60 again... no way.

I AM GOING TO BE 50 KG!

Also I am finally able to stand up to my mom about eating her dinners. I just told her I don't want to. I hope I will be strong enough to tell her I don't want any today. And strong enough not to eat any cake. I am drinking wine today tough. I still have 2 laxatives left.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS :

Body:

Diet:

1. 51 kg till the end of April. 50 kg in May.

- any type of pasta, dark bread only 1 a week and ONLY if I am forced too.

- max 600 kcal

-counting kcal

- nothing to eat after 7pm

- NO WHITE BREAD or POTATOES

- no chocolate or other sweet stuff.

- WATER no SODA, LESS COFFEE

- PLAN MEALS

Exercise :

1. Climbing gym - join

- buy climbing shoes

2. Work out EVERY DAY. Even if its tiny bit. EVERY DAY. Stuff like pull ups push ups, sit ups and lounges.

Other:

1. Braces: get them (I know I am 22 and that I am gonna look ridiculous but I hate my teeth.

2. Look great no matter where I go. Going up without brushing hair and make up? NOT HAPPENING.

3. Take care of my skin every day, facials, peeling, facial massage.

4. Body butter EVERY DAY.

Academics:

- internet/random only 1h a day.

- rest of the time read books/ website/ study for exams

2. Career

internship for summer

portfolio

cv

4. Relationships with other people.

1. I used to show emotions and whine A LOT. Actually thats what people notice the most about me. No more showing that I am sad. Only positives. No more sharing on FB about my shitty life. NOONE GIVES A DAMN

2. Always be happy and always be positive towards other people.

3. 2011 is the year when I reinvent myself. Remember that and try every day to live the fullest and with a plan.

4. Always plan my day. What am I going to do today to make my life better?

5. Never talk to the most recent ex about my feeling towards him. Never tell him I love you again. Never show that you are jealous again. Act as if I have moved on. And actually move on.

6. Always think.. what would Angelina do?

Goodbye 2010! Welcome 2011. Welcome NEW ME!