55.5

55.5 today. Despite the laxatives. I am kind of surprised that the 3 pills didn't work that effectively. 

All I want right now is to be 54.9 on the NY. I don't care if I will need to starve or not. 

I am in the process of figuring out my resolution list. 

I feel... confused. Its like I am in limbo.. waiting for something to happen. 

I am drunk... full with food. 

Despite that I know I will be skinny... 51 kg till the end of febuary. I promise. Pinky promise.